The World Can No Longer Make Me Sad

A Personal Manifesto (01.06.2019)

Consider a church. If you listen to its bells from a distance, the sound provides a serenity no different from the waves of the sea or the chirping of birds in a forest. While for some, those bells represent faith and ritual, for you, they are merely a part of a peaceful scenery you’ve constructed. The event is independent of you, yet you possess the power to frame it into a narrative that brings you peace. It is that simple.

From the window of my metaphorical “moving house”—a place of constant motion and quiet noise—I don’t just see the stars; I observe the mundane routines of city life. Faced with a world where values seem to sink into the mud, I developed a formula: trust no one and sharpen the senses to a primal level. Theory alone was no longer enough; it had to be lived.

The Solipsistic Realization

I have never sought to use anyone. When dreams felt unreachable, I fought for them in solitude. We exist in a state where I don’t know where you are as I write this, and you don’t know where I am. This disconnect might be tragic for some, but I find a strange refuge in it. I act as if everything is an extension of myself—a belief in solipsism born from the fact that no one can truly perceive the world exactly as I do.

A Guide to Selective Existence

Here are the pillars of this newfound perspective:

1. Embracing the Chaotic and Intellectual: Change is most felt in moments of atmospheric or systemic shift—heavy rain, late-night thoughts, or intellectual pursuits. I dream of being a craftsman of forgotten ideas or a voyager discovering a new world in a video game.
2. Accepting the Biological: Basic needs like food and sleep are accidental and inevitable. I choose to stop overthinking them; they simply happen.
3. Controlled Wandering: I use my resources to ensure I am never trapped. Whether it’s a house, a hotel, or a caravan, I need a sanctuary. I’ve realized that aimless wandering until exhaustion is a myth; planned, meaningful tours are the true path to discovery.
4. The Human Element: Paradoxically, humans are our greatest source of joy. If someone is to enter my life, they must accept these terms of my “isolated” philosophy, or I will remain a mystery to them.
5. Post-Apocalyptic Stoicism: There is a difference between watching a disaster movie and living through one. The key is to be prepared and accept the philosophy of “it is what it is.” Stop seeking new information for a moment; respect what has passed and stop grieving.
6. Navigating Chaos: While I advocate for freedom, I warn against blind recklessness. Swim in flowing waters, explore the depths, but do not invite unnecessary trouble from the “system.”
7. Intellectual Avant-Garde: Look in the mirror and ask: what were you born for? Embrace the strange, the avant-garde, and the stories that don’t fit the mold.
8. The Virtue of Loneliness: Unless you find someone who truly loves you, solitude is the ultimate sanctuary. Love what you choose to love, dance with it, and ignore those who lack the will to understand you.
9. The Illusion of Action: Most people feel useful by watching series or playing games. I, however, imprison myself in a “tin can floating at sea” just to believe in something. I don’t even read books in the traditional sense anymore; I seek the essence, the summary, the core.